22 March 2007

Lesson

I have been over reading the newsletter at the Human Kindness Foundation again. Bo Lozoff writes the newsletter. He is one of my favorite people on earth, a real spiritual seeker, someone who is honest and kind and humble.

He says
There’s an old Native American saying that I quoted in We’re All Doing Time: “If you seek to understand the whole Universe, you will understand nothing. If you seek to understand yourself, you will understand the whole Universe.”

This principle applies in a related way to Bible study and the study of any religious principles. If we seek to memorize chapter and verse, if we seek to discuss and argue about abstract passages that have endless interpretations, we will understand nothing. But if we take a few words of any bible and pray on them, wrestle with them, struggle over them for years, however long it takes to experience their meaning in our hearts, then we will understand the whole bible from which those few words come.
My favorite few words from A Course in Miracles, ones that I have been trying to learn deeply, have been "Everyone teaches, and teaches all the time."

Meaning that no matter what you are doing, you are teaching. If you think you are bullshitting the world by putting your best face on, the world still knows. The world can see you right through the act. You might fool them for a while, but eventually you will show your true colors.

This is a lesson I obviously have to work on a lot. I think I am so good at putting on a show. Many times I even fool myself. For a while. But honesty is honesty and lies are lies, and there is a lot of distance between the two and the distance is filled with pain and shame and ugliness.

The less I lie to the world, the more likeable I am to good, honest people. And the rest shouldn't concern me, should they?

I'm sick of my lying face. It hurts to peel that crap off. But if I want to be really alive, I can't be afraid of who I am and I can't be afraid to show others who I am. Do you really want to know?

3 comments:

MsLittlePea said...

Oh this was so good. This is something I struggle with too. I could never accept and love myself all through my teens and half of 20s so I pretended to be something else-and what a lie! Until I didn't even remember the real me anymore. It's been just lately that I felt I could come out and just be me. It is a scary thing....

I truly agree with you about studying the Bible to learn rather than using the words in there to hurt or argue.

Nancy said...

I like the no-holds-barred Suebob. True colors and all.

But I like you when you put on a brave face, too.

I like you, period. But I want you to like you, too. (Does that make sense?)

sheryl said...

Yes

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